An Unexplainable Yet Irresistible

" Sayang. From this day onwards, I'll make it my priority to love, to
cherish and treasure Aida Hernita. 1.1.11 is a good date to start.
You are my future,and 20 is the right time to start planning for the future. I want you to know that whatever planning I have for my future, you're part of it. Have
a great 2011 sayang. Sorry, it took me long to get into your life.
I should've been here earlier. I love you cik ted; forever and always. "

I wish I can freeze the moment. It almost took my sanity at time your eyes shoot mine. I love you. And I meant every eight alphabets spilled. I'll stay with you Amin Mokhtar. I'm not telling an empty promise. This is my vow. ^_^

So HAPPY NEW YEAR people! Let's start a new sheet! May this year turn out good for you, me and people around us. :D

ps : someone have extremely misunderstood about my previous post. As if I had break up with Amin Mokhtar. LOL. So funny of you Hyzann! My previous post has nothing to do with him. Mine is still standing. Forever it will. :)

Shattered

Recently, I've been thinking a lot about you. I couldn't sleep playing back myself leaving you when the last time we met. Knowing the fact that you're no longer around accompanying me through the hurricane, it sometimes hurts. And sometimes I regretted of saying goodbye and turn away from you. Is it a mistake? I don't know, in fact, I never want the answer cos no matter how, you're already gone. You moved on. I moved on. Life have another plan for both of us, I should bear that. And that's how it works now. Period.

Indescribable

I don't know what else to do.
I don't know what else to say.
I don't know what else to think.
I don't know how else to react.
I don't know what else to tell.
I don't know what else left.
I don't know.
I really don't.

What's next?
IDK.

Confession Of A Shopaholic

" Practice moderation, God told us so "

It is awkward for me to start my entry with this kind of quote, cos well, I'm not that type of person and everyone here know bout it. My day usually starts with indecent jokes and loud laughs. This quote had been told by my Oral Biology's lecturer, Mrs Zubaidah when we were discussing about Development of Oral Tissues in Bilik Seminar this evening. Her word caught me as in the next minute, I started to fathom how I've awfully spent my cash in these 2 weeks. Oh My God! I really need a rehab. I've been a terrible chronic shopaholic who couldn't arrest her eyes from clothes, shoes, handbags etc. And the latest thing on my mind is this newly published perfume ; Marc jacobs Lola. You don't have any idea how I desperately want that!

With so much of distraction around, I don't know how I'm gonna save my money and stop spending over unnecessary stuffs. LOL. My mom is gonna continuously blab right on my face if she knows how much I've spent my cash. Yes I need a rehab. I need to rest, but the problem is, HOW? LOL. I couldn't handle myself, I wanna spend moolah ! XD

Yeahh!

I love my new permed hair ! :D
Now I don't appear like a typical chinese girl anymore.
Not my intention of being racist.
But no more re-bonded hair from now onward.
Damn bored la weh.
Weee!

Thousand Miles Await

Pictures hide billions of words
I love you most ^^

Frankly speaking, I don't know how this thing work. Still, thanks Miss Alia for the tag. ^^

ps : No matter what, I'm always here. Period.

Once Upon A Time Starts Right Now

In order for my 100% physically and emotionally preparation for second semester in Dental School, I have deactivate my Facebook's account cos I discovered I have this chronic addiction towards it. I spent too much time on it and I'm pretty sure I need the rehabilitation. LOL. Few friends rang me and one thing on the surface of their tongue, do I deactivate my account because of my bad result? or heart broken? or do I have chronic depression? Haha. You guys are so funny man! First, I haven't get my result, yet. Second, I am one happy bird now, Third, yeah, I feel extremely depressed because I'm lack of money now and I desperately want to shop, again. That answered the questions. So people, since I'm 24/7 not available on FB, please dial my phone number for any inquiry, I am totally approachable there. :)

Next.

I am overwhelm with your affection. Your presence resembles drug and I couldn't resist you even for once. Those fairy tales that people used to story to me is getting vivid and sound so true now. Once upon a time starts right now. Hugs and tones of kisses. :)

Stick with People who Keeps You Stand

After a long journey for the last 2 days, I make up my mind to have a rest today by not going anywhere and watched TV at home. Oww have I mention where the hell have I been for the last 2 days? I'm taking off to Bukit Merah with my beautiful Zealous gang. The journey was awesome even truth to be true, Bukit Merah wasn't as hell fun as any other water theme parks on earth but then, it's all about people behind it. Zealous is freaking rock, we chatted and laughed hysterically there. Yeah, the flashback started again. And of course, there are variety type of people we met along the journey. LOL. It's funny though, really. You don't have any idea how speechless we are.

We stayed at homestay nearby with worth RM66. After all the enjoyment we had on that day, we canceled our plan of staying up till morning cos we were too exhausted. Of course we did chatting and gossiping around but then everyone gave up when clock ticks at 2 am in the morning. Except for Yana and Arin, those two lovebirds were too excited after not seeing each other for a while perhaps. I don't have any idea why they were so active while the other of us already snored like a zombie.

And now we're looking forward for Langkawi trip for next holidays. Hopefully this time everyone can involve themselves since it has been ages since the last time 15 of us spent time together. ^^



Last night I've made a big mistake by doing that till I end up falling asleep after a long silent sobbed. I thought I was strong enough to deal with it, but I was totally wrong. All those feeling of insecure I'd buried before came across my mind and overpowered my sanity last night. I was thinking of refusing your call but 22 miscalled eh? That was just irresistible. And when I heard of your voice this morning, I know I had excessively fathomed over stupid things. Then all of words you had uttered before lingered my mind and without realizing, I carved a tiny smile while on the phone with you. Funny how I can fall on this sweet talker. LOL. But still, I stick with you now. Maybe I don't destine for you in the past, but what's matter now is our present and the future. Yes, I already get over with my irrelevant thoughts. No worries okay. Hold on tight don't ever let go. I stick with you sunshine. Love you. ^^

Rise and Shine

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Sharifah Faeqah Helmy Alhusaini
&
Noor Syafizah bt Abd Rahman

The day immediately after our last paper was Faeqa's birthday. At first the plan was this ; eat, midnight movie and bowling. But then Syafizah came with a crazy idea to surprise her and make this as one of her best celebration. So we planned it with Boo, Faeqa's BFF, to make a simple nice surprise. And the best part is, sya invited someone on purpose to share one of Faeqa's big day with us. The plan went well as we had our dinner at Noodle Station, Mid Valley. Her eyes were widely opened when all of sudden, her 4 beautiful BFFs came with this big Chocolate Indulgence with ignited candle on top of it. It was a big moment as in my eyes, I saw a girl stand in between her favorite people, surrounded with love and affection. It was simple, nice and yet merry with excitement. Now you see how much we love you, don't you angel? Happy birthday girl! I lebiu so much!

And unlucky for my another BFF, Syafizah, her birth date fell on hectic study week. We really couldn't have time to plan anything for her. So as I promised, I brought her to buy her favorite collection, Toys Story from Walt Disney. We bought, Mr woody's horse at Toys r Us store. Unbelievably, other girls would demand for something like any ordinary girls love; shoes, handbags, clothes, etc etc. But this syafizah would prefer things deviate from any other girls on earth. That's the thing that make this naive and innocence syafizah look special. So HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY babe! I lebiu the most! ^^

Then, the night after that, I'd spent some time with Amin Mokhtar before I took a long ride back to Penang just now. I know it was worthless to burn cash in order to spend his time with me for about only an hour, but still, he'd done it. Thanks for doing this. Word can't describe how happy I am. Aida Hernita will loves you, till 2 plus 2 is 3, or in other words, until eternity. :)


ps : wakk, nampak bulu kaki awak la. HAHAHA

Helo Sunshine :)

Nothing's gonna change my love for you.

Serenade to this piece of rhythm.
I hope this stays.
:)

ps : this song caught my heart. Thank you. :)

Externally Impatient

How fast time flew away and without even realized, semester 1 will end in another one week. I stand in the middle of crowd with completely aware that I'm going to face my semester 1 examination which will first finalized where am I in another 5 years onward. Yes this exam is hell freaking me out because for one main reason, I'm not 100% ready and little flaws here and there in aspect of my knowledge on those 4 subjects are killing me. I never let myself incomplete during my previous big examinations. So it's just feel awkward to know that you're going to sit for an exam with feeling of unsure that you know everything all. But well, we don't call it dentistry, a critical course in UM if what they only demand is, for a pass. I'm not saying that I'm not ready, (well that's too much lah kan) but I think I am averagely ready with a little bit of insecure. How was that? Haha. Basically I can honestly say that I just can't wait to sit for this exams and see how my reputation is gonna bring me up to.

And lesson learned, stop fooling around for next semester and keep your track right on path or else you'll miserably end up as a failure as you're wasting the second chance. To rewind your previous mistake is impossible but clearly you can fix it for another semester if you have this determination and enthusiasm. So stop all your crap from now onward AIDA, like seriously girl!

So yeah, just see whether this semester 1 examination will turn out averagely good or horribly bad. Haha. I'm funnily impatient bout it.

Lastly, a big GOODLUCK I bid to all my course-mates! Make your way right on top people! ^^

:(

Amin Mokhtar,
I am truly sorry.
:'(
I love you I really am.

Help Me Can You?

I pray for this Aida Hernita,
a student from Faculty of Dentistry
to score good marks for her
becoming semester 1 examination
which cover up Oral Biology, Physiology, Biochemistry
and especially ANATOMY.

Thanks my smart readers. I really need this. :)

Stressful Study Week

For one real time, I feel really unprepared. Exam is nearly around the corner and I started to feel the heat. I never have this feeling before, neither during my PMR nor my SPM nor my matriculation year. Damn it I am freaking anxious! I am in the middle of nowhere. My ANATOMY is a total fuck up. I don't have any idea what the hell am I reading, really not helpful though. I'm sorry if i'm being such a dramatic here, but trust me, you don't have any idea how horrible it is.

Fuck I hate this feelings!

Fuck fuck fuck!

My Bitchy Girls

Friend is a person attached to another by feeling of warm affection or personal regard. It is not by a mean of casual acquaintances or someone recognized by sight, thought not intimately. When we termed his/her as an either friend, true friend or best friend, indirectly we assume that they are the one whom we can lean on whenever life turns upside down regardless of doubting the appearance shown as a friend in disguise. I believe almost every single human on earth have their own companionship, and approximately half of us have best friends, a person whom you can address your problems and trust on to conceal the truth behind your secrets.

Unbelievable me, I used to vow that I won't drown myself in this interrelationship thing but it eventually started to change when I met them, my bitchy BFFs who never stop resound the audio with their laughs and indecent jokes. ROFL. Yes, I have to admit, it's too early to labeled us each other as a BFF, but why not taking a chance standing on your path? Whatever the consequence is, let time tell. They keep me stand when things around started to fall apart and they keep the tune right when I'm in the middle of nowhere, so I demand nothing more, they are more than enough. :)

So BFFs, I try to tame my temper and learn to stop throwing tantrums. I promise I'll be good and nice little Aida. Perhaps I never utter this beyond your consciousness, but trust me, I always want things to turn out good between us. And sorry if I hurt any of you in this 3 months and above we'd been together with my improper language and actions. I cherish you guys, I really do. Lebiuu BFFs! :)

Imperfection

Remember when I used to let your tears warmed my shoulder at time you were contented with sobbed and sadness? Remember when I used to say "hey, chill! come and talk to me when you feel like to. I'm all ears for you" at time you had this unwanted thoughts twirling your mind like a tumor? Remember when you felt unsure about yourself, you keep on asking, "do I look ok?" "Am I good enough?" and then I'll said "you're good enough for us. don't worry too much". Remember when you have the feeling of badly wanting to do something but your weak will power loosen your ability and I keep on saying "just do it, be brave. I got your back". Can you recall all those moments? Don't get me wrong, I don't have any intention to remind you how good I am cos I never see myself as flawless as everyone else. Never be flair in anything. Never land on perfection till I prefer to stay frozen and keep my face straight.

There was a time I demand for tiny hole from whom I call as friend so that I can feel safe and secure, slowly whisper to me that everything's gonna be okay. Convince me in having faith on my own ability and shove away the solitary moment inside me. Nobody want to feel contaminate with bad testimonial from their own friend cos I believe good friends won't camouflage. Due to inferior of feeling discriminate, I try my very best to convince you in every words and actions of yours. Well, karma tells us, what goes around will come around.

But somehow, karma doesn't really work on me perhaps. When I hide my face in between pillows, keep all the sorrow to myself, you never have a gut to ask even a single why. Instead, you prefer to let it stay frozen, as if my emotions have nothing to do with yours. And you blamed me for every imperfection shown in your eyes as if I don't really belong there, like I don't deserve to be as same as where you were standing. You might see me laugh in the next minute, but deep at the bottom of my heart, I'm battling to comfort myself and trying hard to replace the poignant inside me by carving a smile. I felt truly disappointed. Disappointed to you, and ashamed with my own flaw. I wish I'm reborn. Sigh.

I'm sorry if I'd been too much explicit this time. I have no intention to hurt anyone, but I assume I can overload my post with my own emotions as this is my blog. No hard feelings. :)

What's on your mind?

Currently what's on my mind?




















THIS















Or THIS
















I know some of you might jump into assumption, it's really crazy and irrelevant.
But somehow, I don't really care. In fact, I just love all those weirdo's stuffs.
I would really go gaga over crazy things!
Oh my shit, what am I thinking?
This is so gonna be FUN!
MUAHAHA.

Different Options

After few months living in this new atmosphere, at last, for the first time today, I'd been able to wake up like a normal human being, avoiding myself from snoring like a pig in the morning and woke up in the evening like a disheveled zombie looking for repast. LOL. I spent some quality time with two favorite people of mine by jogging around UM's compound this morning, and they brought me way too far from my expectation. We jogged till we reached PALAPES camp, where of course, I'd behaved notoriously and gave the PALAPES' members a funny signal. I don't have any idea why on earth I was so energetic just now. ROFL. I was joking around, hopefully they would not take it too serious. i don't have any intention to undermine them. Hehe. And of course, we storied many things along the way and we laughed crazily even over simple things. We recalled back the time we had been oriented by our seniors. It's just so funny and even you told me the same story over and over again, I would burst into hysterical laugh till my stomach crack. HAHA.


And all of a sudden, today, I'm thinking of doing something that I doubt of my own ability that I can do it. I doubt if I can resist my own reflection. But I shouldn't let this feeling overpower me anymore. I always lower my ego in friendship and I can easily offer friendship to people around me without taking into account of what type of person you are, what kind of attitude you have or what are the things that people talk behind you. But when you take my honesty for granted and treat me like a stranger whenever you don't need me anymore, now that wasn't very nice right? You just have to choose 2 easy options, take it, or leave it. As simple as that. I refuse to involve in any of your game cos friendship is not a gamble, all I demand is a piece of honesty from you. Okay? Hopefully you can make up your mind, take it, or leave it. :)





The picture was taken during our Jamuan Raya Dental. Don't ask me why I upload this, I just need some frenzy pictures for my plain entry. Hehe.

Purchasing The Desire

I can't stop fathom how I enjoyed my working life as an admin in Pacific hypermarket and how fun my teamwork was. Being a part of the teamwork was the best thing I ever had. I learned to deal with customers in every situation, I learned to settle things independently and I exposed myself with new skill which i never discovered it before. And most important is, their sense of humor really worked on me, where it was the time I started to let out myself from the box, entering an entire new phase of my life, and being totally open-minded person due to their porno-ish attitude. ROFL. If you ask my current course-mate or my previous matriculation's friends bout my porno-ish level is, the answer will not be surprising at all cos now you know where I inherited all those attitude from. HAHA. I know it is too much gay explicit part of me, but blame me not. They dragged me to be a part of them. Hence, by hook or by crook, you just have to bear with me. :P

I have sketched a plan to search for a job to occupy my first semester's break sooner. I wanna gain as much savoir-faire as I can. I refuse to abandon any chance stand on my path. The enthusiasm is getting vivid. I am freaking eager bout it now. Yeah!

The taiko of our department and the most senior amongst us.
They were called by HR department and given the warning letters for so many times due to their mischievousness. ROFL.
But when it comes to work, they would done a great job.

Another Aida here, Aida fadzlina. :)
And there's big "PACIFIC SALE" written on our T-shirt. =.="

Current mode : Gian nak kerja dooo!

Bye.

Happy Eid-Ul-fitr

Moon of Syawwal is sighted on the eve of the last day of Ramadhan. It is a true Thanksgiving Day where tongue start to articulate forgiveness from physical and emotional. It is time to put your ego beneath a pillow, being modest and admit our weaknesses. The day marked the beginning of new atachment where people bend knees, addressing forgiveness from the elderly citizen by kissing their right hand. The tradition goes with a gatherness of all families' members under one roof cheerishing the relationship bonded us as one big family.

For me myself, I stand as a half adult, where I realized, Syawwal is not all about receiving the green pocket, counting piggy bank and bloated our mind to an alarming degree with moneys. I recalled the time when I was a kid, I glorify Syawwal full with excitement claiming for moneys from the elders, and even me and the other kids were eager of going around our nanny's neighbourhood, visiting house per house claiming for more coins. Now, I see my reflection on my little brother and it makes me reminisced back all those little things I used to have before him.

This year was pretty different from before, we celebrate Syawwal with our new family's member, Mohd Khaizuran b Mohd Zulkiflee. He's so adorable and I just can't resist him. How he melted me when he uttered the word 'Kakak', a first word spoken out when he saw me after 2 months I'd been away. Awww! So presenting my little champion,




I guess I'm pulling out now. Happy Eid-Ul-Fitr people! Have a blast on this most welcoming month okay! :)

Home sweet home.

Finally home after spending 5 horrible hours in the bus. It was like a pain in my ass man! But it's worth doing as at last I reached my beloved Penang. Heaven's bell baby! Couldn't believe myself I'm praising the city after all the abashment I'd sulked due to Penangites' slang themselves. I used to feel not-so-proud bout the slang. But it started to change since I know a friend, who vainly telling me how good Johor is and always mock over Penang (in a joking manner) and me keep telling her the vice versa. Yeah, I love the city already now! LOL. Poyo teruk tak? ROFL. XP

So, I already done my to-do-list cos I don't wanna waste every single time I own here as I won't be home for the next 2 weeks. So just wait and see dude, things are going to turn out freaking good in a meanwhile (well, atleast good in my own angle. ROFL). Although I had sketched my social plan, I need to keep my study right on track. There's so many assignment given and I'm feeling unsure if I can done it in any way. Hence, I made a to-do-list on it too. Hopefully I'll start my work at least by tomorrow. LOL.

Dear Liana Aziz, I'm ready to rumble baby! A time to spend time with you and uttering every little things like we used to do before. I'm trying to fix my time to see you and Hasniza. So wait for my ring okay!

Next.

I know I already introduce her in my blog, but she's just irresistible. So once again, presenting,
Sarah Jessica Parker as Carrie Bradshaw in Sex and The City. I just in love with the character. A talented writer and miss fashionista from New York City. The character gives a huge impact on me. And I'm so in love with New York, wish I can go there someday. I wanna shopping spree! :DD

Enough for now. GTG!

Shake the Glitter Baby.

I'm happy now, I do. Life is fair enough for me. My life is not depends on tossing dice or gambling. Look high at great opportunities and goddamn I have fun friends. I realized I need to pull my old friends and keep them from running away. I feel that I'm so selfish but that's Aida, always being eager to find more friends. But blamed me not. I don't have any intention for being such a snobbish person. I've been through a really hard time back to 2, 3 years before. Friendship is my biggest fear in life chain. Though it may lead to heart broken. I used to give fulltime effort to win my friendship and keep it from falling apart. But it's proven, people changed, people never stay the same. I'd been abandoned by an ex friend and even I'm offering friendship for her, she never accept it and let everything left unspoken. Seems like her attention given to me was a completely farce after all. But now, I can held my head up to space. I can show my popular joker face in front of her without feeling inhuman anymore. I enjoyed everything I've earned now, it's beyond my expectation till it took my sanity. Danggg. There was a great people behind every single fun we experienced. :) I won't mention anyone's name here cos I don't want to show my appreciation towards anyone, or else they will 'Perasan'! ROFL. I guess keeping it to myself sounds more fun. XP.

And the best part is, I'm living my life at the utmost admiration and affection. I'm impressed with everyone's genuine intelligence level and at the same time been able to balance their social life. That's what we called, BEAUTY WITH BRAIN. Can you see the point?

Next, to YOU, I'm sorry if all this time I act such a burden to you. I'll try to stop bugging you at chatbox cos I'm worried if you'll get annoyed later on. So buzzed me if you free okay? :)

Oh one more, I love acting such a bitch! XP So I don't give a damn bout others' thought. Get the hell out from my life you troublesome. Your attention is not needed. Thanks.

Silent Thoughts.

I was all alone in the middle of the night and these sensational unrealistic feelings deep inside me are getting vivid. I refused to post any entry bout my unrealistic emotion cos i don't wanna people to undermine me and look me as a miserable pathetic person. I prefer to put my weaknesses beneath the pillow. And that's the reason i deactivate my previous blog. But i'm feeling human now, i can't help being explosive at this time. My fingers are eager to type all the lumps inside me. There's mixture of feelings now, guess that keeping all those unwanted feelings to myself wasn't a brilliant idea.

fathoming of what i had left behind and what i had earned, I can't keep tears from running down at the edge of my eyes. I always believe that birds always come back to it's nest. But i'm feeling unsure if i can wait long enough, waiting for something that i doubt of the existence. I know i shouldn't stop having faith cos i'm the one who promising you a hope, but it started to fade away now. I can't feel your presence anymore, no catalyst left to spur my confidence towards us. I never look us as one anymore, i saw two different person, with two different world.

I try to fix things up but it's getting harder and harder. Ignorance started to sound bliss for me. I prefer to ignore you, letting everything left undefined. Not a good idea after all, but it's ease me at this moment. I miss you and everything that we ever had. But i'm letting off the grip now, cos i never wanna be a hindrance for you to be happy.

I wanna talk to someone, who could shove away the grief and sadness i felt. And keep everything from falling apart. I need any mantra that can soothe this frenzy emotion. There's always a good people around me, but i don't want to burden them. I don't want anyone to see my tears from running down.


But i wish, i just wish that someone will read this and willing to listen to my silent thoughts. Will you?

...

Exultant is Bliss.

A demeanour reflects your personality in various perspectives. As time progress, you will gain maturity and started to sketch your own life, fashioning it with different colors and thoughts. When I soon realized that I am big enough to direct my own storyline, I managed to act like one. I don't solely depends on others as I believed I can stand on my own feet. But yes, it's okay to ask for help cos a single help might useful enough to build your own episodes of life.

I am almost fully psyche to face everything beyond my expectation. And absolutely there's great people behind it all. I don't want to post an entry showing my appreciation and affection towards anyone but to be honest, they deserve to be mentioned here cos I was bloomed by the way they treat me. Everyone was being so nice here. Friends, seniors especially my buddies, Kak Kinah and Kak Zara, lecturers, and the list goes on. Frankly speaking, all of them give a voluminous joy for me and they have been helpful enough to gain my confidence.

Yeah, I strongly agree that life as a Dental student is pretty tough, but I always find space between ticking time to socialize and spoil myself. So mundane life and boredom never featured in my vocabulary. But in these 2 or 3 weeks, I might occupied myself settle things up cos I'm semi-conscious of what have been taught to me as I always get too comfy and eventually fall asleep during the lectures. ROFL. XD I need to fix things up or else I'll end up with repeating my whole first year once again while my batch-mate is enjoying their second year. LOL.

Before I end my entry, note this, don't come at me and admit yourself as one of my fellow if you never convinced me before. I used to give full efforts to win our friendship but you never care. So it's too late now if you wanna show your affection and your care towards me. I laughed till my ass out thinking over your action cos you sounds like a miserable pathetic person to me. Shame on you.

And a reminder to you-know-who, stop acting like you're such a good person and I'm such a young bad ass. I try to ignore you but you had crossed the line. Stop telling rumors and fabricate incessantly. If you wanna tell the story, start it from A to Z, don't you just pick up the chapters and afterthought so that I sounds like a bad person in our situation. We both know well what's happening between us. Be mature please.

Enough for now. Have a nice day people. Muaxhs! :)

Random Thoughts.

I was fully occupied for one whole week. Orientation week was a total hectic and i was completely exhausted. I didn't get enough sleep cos well, at home i woke up every 1 or 2 pm. ^^" there's a huge difference between 5.30 am and 1 pm. Sigh. I couldn't even believe myself that i'd made it throughout the week. Big clap for myself. ROFL. But overall, i enjoyed myself tremendously here. I have the instinct saying that something good is gonna happen soon. But i prefer to lower down my expectation. So let just keep the thought safely to myself.

Oh have i mentioned, i saw my seniors from SERATAS here. Kak Anne was not the only senior i saw, but she was the one who handled the orientation week at my college. And guess what, she's my floor-mate too! She's only two rooms from mine if i'm not mistaken. What a fate. Heh. I don't have any idea how i'm gonna face her. Segan kot. ROFL.

And bout roommates, there's 2 of them. Frankly speaking, they're approachable and i think i can get along with them. But one of them was ex-PASUM. So she already have her own PASUM's friends and she's a kind of doing her own things in the room. I don't think that she has the intention to mix around with two of us. Well, obviously i'd tried to have a conversation with her but i guess it takes time to work between us. Nvm, i'm okay with it. Everything will be okay in couple of weeks. I think we're gonna be a good roommates. :P

Oh btw, the course, Dental Surgery i'm taking sounds a bit tough. The timetable given is so pack. =.= But i found out it's gonna be quite excited. Yeah, i love it!

And in case you wanna know, i appear way differ from i was before. People thought that i was a Chinese. And when i said that i'm a Malay, they thought that i'm from Sabah or Sarawak. Funny. It's kinda hilarious act. ROFL. But i love it, at last, i'm being ME. No more fake Aida now. weee. So people, accept me for who i am TODAY.

that's all for now i guess. I'm not in the mood of blogging act. So just a random post here. Take care people. Muahs.

Watch and Learn Baby.

i was transported back to the days when i used to picture myself study in UM and having a good life there. but when i officially registered myself in Perlis Matriculation College, i was totally frustrated. i had abolished the dream and decide to simply accept what has been fated for me after this. i never have a slightly thought that i will further my future in UM anymore. but now, i was sitting alone in a room, fathoming of what is waiting for me next week. i'm eager bout it. that's what when they said, people deserve a second chance. yeah, mom, dad, you can held your head up in space and be proud of your daughter now. ROFL. arrogant much? well, vain enough as i know i deserve it. XD

so i've been very busy these two weeks settle things up. and since this is my last week of long fun holiday, i choose to spend time at home helping mom doing some home works. since it's just me and mom living in the house, so i try my very best to bloom her heart and show her how mature i am now. ;P well you see, back to 2 or 3 years before, we always fought over many things and trust me, it was like huge fought. it doesn't surprising at all as both of us were always get grumpy and our brain easily get boiled when one of us displeasure the other one. and none of us thought that we were culpable enough to admit our weaknesses. but everything started to change when i'm 19 now. we are like boon companion you know. we share many things. we go shop together. and we share some secrets that we had never uttered before. too much till one of my friend used to poignant wishing that she can have a same mom as mine. ow, i love you momma. :)

besides doing home works, i spend time watching tv and one of these reality program really caught me. Australia's Next Top Model. it was season 2 in 2006 but i never watched it before. you were out of date, aida. LOL ==" i never like Eboni cos she looked dreary and always mock other girls in the house. but she deserve it cos yeah, i agree that she have complete packages to be a supermodel. but if i'm one of the judges, i would probably choose Madeleine cos she's one hot chicks. i think flirting with some guys during shooting wasn't a big deal cos when it comes to work, she did a great job. her pictures were perfect. and America's Petite Next Top Model is my favourite too. it's a brand new season this year. but i have to say, none of them really catch my eyes cos err, they're petite. ROFL. ^^' but i loike when Lulu was eliminated last week cos she was dead annoying. she and Ashley always fabricate incessantly over other girls in the house like they were perfect enough. cehh. and Glee, 3 words, I LOVE IT! Dianna Agron is hot!

eboni stocks

madeleine rose

Dianna Agron as Quinn Fabray in Glee

oh btw, i spend my evening wisely this holiday by jogging around my apartment compound but the weather was being very sarcastic these few days. i no longer jog since last week. wtf. i guess mother nature prefer me to remain fat. motherfudge! haha. =="

fyi, just a random title, nothing precise at all. that's what paparazzi do to popularize their articles. ;PP

revealing the unrevealed.

there was an urbane myth about pinocchio that had been promised by a magical fairy-tale to become a true human if he lived his life at his best behaviour. he told too many lies till one day he realized a valuable lesson. this story had been circulated among kids and parents from one generation to next generation. when i was a kid, i was nurtured by my own parents that lying wasn't a good choice to solve problems, but instead, i had been told to be braved and admit my own fault. but i found out that it was not an easy option especially when i started my high school.

i've been telling too many white lies since i was in high school and they started to break me down now. i'm not a wooden-made person and there was no such as fairy-tale and it's magic in real life. but i am expecting a happy ending, so that i can tell others who is the real Aida behind the jovial shown and her angelic face. tettt! XD when i was in high school, i was surrounded by people who possessed a perfect life background till i started to fear that i couldn't adapt myself with the environment and being accepted by the population. sometimes an irrelevant mind setting can crossed your judgement. that was the beginning of a lie.

i soon discovered that i'm not living my life for others for God sake. there was no point of being hypocrite and keep denying over the truth and feeling passion that i wanna be real me. i'm tired of being at my best behaviour. last night i laughed to myself thinking over my past action. it's a mistake. i should have known myself. i shouldn't let others' thought possessed my mind. c'mon, it's not like the end of the world if you're not perfect enough or being hated by others. what a joke Aida! =="

so i made up my mind already. let me reveal something that i've been keeping all this time. it's okay if you wanna judged me with anything on your mind, i don't blame anyone in this case. it's about me, and i don't care anymore. i just wanna be me. :)


like they said, one picture hides billion of words. :)

moving on to another phase.

i was stucked on the keyboard to have a right sentence on my post. i was in the middle of nowhere, pacing back and forth the moment i'd had and what i'll gain in the next minute. i'm feeling secure. at last i've been able to feel totally relief and shoved away the doubt that keep questioning me, was the effort i'd gave all this while can promise me a better future? was it gonna be worth it? and i guess destiny had offered me a better life. yeah, i always believe that everything come with a price. and mine had been paid off. thank you God, the One who willing to hear my silent prayer in each of my combat to grant my biggest dream. but still, it doesn't mean i can feel totally comfy of what i'd earned cos i'm gonna combat with tough works after this. i'm eager bout it. :)

next. school's holiday had totally over. sister had continued her study in MRSM Kubang Pasu. pheww! at last i can break the habit of waking up hearing all those Korea's songs playing on KBSW (303 channel). and fuck, she blamed me cos i woke up so late, so she had the right to conquer the Korea's channel. the reason was understandable but it's unacceptable. huh. i don't have any idea why on earth she's so obsessed with all those Korean stuff. starting from the actors, the songs, the language, the foods, the tradition and the list goes on. she even talked korean's language with me, which is obviously i don't have any idea of what she's saying. LOL. i'm taking risk of what i'm saying now. but i assume i can disgorge the dissatisfaction since this is my blog. no hard feelings okay, but Korea's stuff is just not my type, too obnoxious for me.

but i have to say, 2 weeks spending time with her strengthen the bond we'd had cos we were seldomly met. taking care the 13 years old girl who was on her own phase where she's capable of secreting everything to herself shows what type of sister i am. well, i guess i did it quite good this time. ROFL.

that's all for now. i'm signing off. have a nice day peeps. :)

movie marathon

have read and enjoyed the book tremendously, Lagenda Budak Setan tells about a pretty malay woman named Ayu who'd falled in love with hopeless romantic guy named Kashah. tell me if i'm being optimistic, honestly i must say, the movie and the characters enrolled by Lisa Surhani and Farid Kamil was quite good and pretty much worth to be watched. well, i totally agreed that Farid Kamil owned the Kasyah part. eheh. the movie, even it's not as good as the novel itself, is way better than the tear-jerking Cinta. LOL. so thumbs up for LBS. :)

ps : Lisa, i'm still your big fan, eventhough there's a part with the 'face' makes me burst into big laugh. HAHA. seems like i'd spoilt the sad scenes. ROFL. ^^"


and two thumbs up for Prince Of Persia. for me, the story tells more to brotherhood instead of fighting for a justice. and Dastan was umph! till someone get sooo jealous with him. cehh, knock it off you jelo. beat my ego first. XD well, obviously, Malay movies managed to improve and started to break the lame-old-style from time to time, but still, it's way uncomparable than Hollywood's i tell you. so, Prince Of Persia is a must watch movie!




NEXT.
i can't barely wait for this. the vacation to Abu Dhabi gonna be amazing i tell you. and surely the fashion behind the movie gonna be so glamorous. it's like every woman's dream you know. and Carrie Bradshaw gives a huge impact on me ; her fashion, her style, her inteligency, her perspectives of life etc. awww! beauty with brain, see?

AND THIS

edward cullen. totally my celebrity crush! ROFL. XD

i was about to begin the introduction with the Prince Of Persia but i changed my mind. i mean, i'm a Malaysian and i wanna shed some gratification for Malay movie. :)

you caught me.

today was a tiring day as i'm spending the whole evening with my favourite person without having a chance to take a deep breath for even once and rest after walking for almost 4 hours. blamed me not, it was the shoes i'm wearing. geez. ==" but still, i'm willing to stay up in order to put some language on my blog. :)

i was tremendously happy today, it was indescribable. if only you wanna know, today was a day marked the beginning of my fondness towards you. i never thought you are willing to do this for me, really. the affection that you gave to me all this while started to tickle the fidgetiness inside me. i know what you were doing was just an art; love. but i'm worry if i'm acting such a burden for you. i'm worry if you'll regret of what you were doing for me cos i'm feeling unsure if i can give you the comitment you were hoping after all. and most of the thing is, i'm feeling insecure if i can keep the promise i'd vowed and lastly carve a smile on your face. i'm telling you the truth, it's my biggest fear in life chain. i don't want to disappoint you. i don't want to be the one who caused your tears running down like the deserts need the rain.

still, i cherish the bond we'd had cos i know i've got beaten by love till i no longer hooking others. i'm promising you the spirit. just so you know, you have win my heart without you even know. :') i'm fighting to win yours too, trust me. :)