Watch and Learn Baby.

i was transported back to the days when i used to picture myself study in UM and having a good life there. but when i officially registered myself in Perlis Matriculation College, i was totally frustrated. i had abolished the dream and decide to simply accept what has been fated for me after this. i never have a slightly thought that i will further my future in UM anymore. but now, i was sitting alone in a room, fathoming of what is waiting for me next week. i'm eager bout it. that's what when they said, people deserve a second chance. yeah, mom, dad, you can held your head up in space and be proud of your daughter now. ROFL. arrogant much? well, vain enough as i know i deserve it. XD

so i've been very busy these two weeks settle things up. and since this is my last week of long fun holiday, i choose to spend time at home helping mom doing some home works. since it's just me and mom living in the house, so i try my very best to bloom her heart and show her how mature i am now. ;P well you see, back to 2 or 3 years before, we always fought over many things and trust me, it was like huge fought. it doesn't surprising at all as both of us were always get grumpy and our brain easily get boiled when one of us displeasure the other one. and none of us thought that we were culpable enough to admit our weaknesses. but everything started to change when i'm 19 now. we are like boon companion you know. we share many things. we go shop together. and we share some secrets that we had never uttered before. too much till one of my friend used to poignant wishing that she can have a same mom as mine. ow, i love you momma. :)

besides doing home works, i spend time watching tv and one of these reality program really caught me. Australia's Next Top Model. it was season 2 in 2006 but i never watched it before. you were out of date, aida. LOL ==" i never like Eboni cos she looked dreary and always mock other girls in the house. but she deserve it cos yeah, i agree that she have complete packages to be a supermodel. but if i'm one of the judges, i would probably choose Madeleine cos she's one hot chicks. i think flirting with some guys during shooting wasn't a big deal cos when it comes to work, she did a great job. her pictures were perfect. and America's Petite Next Top Model is my favourite too. it's a brand new season this year. but i have to say, none of them really catch my eyes cos err, they're petite. ROFL. ^^' but i loike when Lulu was eliminated last week cos she was dead annoying. she and Ashley always fabricate incessantly over other girls in the house like they were perfect enough. cehh. and Glee, 3 words, I LOVE IT! Dianna Agron is hot!

eboni stocks

madeleine rose

Dianna Agron as Quinn Fabray in Glee

oh btw, i spend my evening wisely this holiday by jogging around my apartment compound but the weather was being very sarcastic these few days. i no longer jog since last week. wtf. i guess mother nature prefer me to remain fat. motherfudge! haha. =="

fyi, just a random title, nothing precise at all. that's what paparazzi do to popularize their articles. ;PP

revealing the unrevealed.

there was an urbane myth about pinocchio that had been promised by a magical fairy-tale to become a true human if he lived his life at his best behaviour. he told too many lies till one day he realized a valuable lesson. this story had been circulated among kids and parents from one generation to next generation. when i was a kid, i was nurtured by my own parents that lying wasn't a good choice to solve problems, but instead, i had been told to be braved and admit my own fault. but i found out that it was not an easy option especially when i started my high school.

i've been telling too many white lies since i was in high school and they started to break me down now. i'm not a wooden-made person and there was no such as fairy-tale and it's magic in real life. but i am expecting a happy ending, so that i can tell others who is the real Aida behind the jovial shown and her angelic face. tettt! XD when i was in high school, i was surrounded by people who possessed a perfect life background till i started to fear that i couldn't adapt myself with the environment and being accepted by the population. sometimes an irrelevant mind setting can crossed your judgement. that was the beginning of a lie.

i soon discovered that i'm not living my life for others for God sake. there was no point of being hypocrite and keep denying over the truth and feeling passion that i wanna be real me. i'm tired of being at my best behaviour. last night i laughed to myself thinking over my past action. it's a mistake. i should have known myself. i shouldn't let others' thought possessed my mind. c'mon, it's not like the end of the world if you're not perfect enough or being hated by others. what a joke Aida! =="

so i made up my mind already. let me reveal something that i've been keeping all this time. it's okay if you wanna judged me with anything on your mind, i don't blame anyone in this case. it's about me, and i don't care anymore. i just wanna be me. :)


like they said, one picture hides billion of words. :)

moving on to another phase.

i was stucked on the keyboard to have a right sentence on my post. i was in the middle of nowhere, pacing back and forth the moment i'd had and what i'll gain in the next minute. i'm feeling secure. at last i've been able to feel totally relief and shoved away the doubt that keep questioning me, was the effort i'd gave all this while can promise me a better future? was it gonna be worth it? and i guess destiny had offered me a better life. yeah, i always believe that everything come with a price. and mine had been paid off. thank you God, the One who willing to hear my silent prayer in each of my combat to grant my biggest dream. but still, it doesn't mean i can feel totally comfy of what i'd earned cos i'm gonna combat with tough works after this. i'm eager bout it. :)

next. school's holiday had totally over. sister had continued her study in MRSM Kubang Pasu. pheww! at last i can break the habit of waking up hearing all those Korea's songs playing on KBSW (303 channel). and fuck, she blamed me cos i woke up so late, so she had the right to conquer the Korea's channel. the reason was understandable but it's unacceptable. huh. i don't have any idea why on earth she's so obsessed with all those Korean stuff. starting from the actors, the songs, the language, the foods, the tradition and the list goes on. she even talked korean's language with me, which is obviously i don't have any idea of what she's saying. LOL. i'm taking risk of what i'm saying now. but i assume i can disgorge the dissatisfaction since this is my blog. no hard feelings okay, but Korea's stuff is just not my type, too obnoxious for me.

but i have to say, 2 weeks spending time with her strengthen the bond we'd had cos we were seldomly met. taking care the 13 years old girl who was on her own phase where she's capable of secreting everything to herself shows what type of sister i am. well, i guess i did it quite good this time. ROFL.

that's all for now. i'm signing off. have a nice day peeps. :)

movie marathon

have read and enjoyed the book tremendously, Lagenda Budak Setan tells about a pretty malay woman named Ayu who'd falled in love with hopeless romantic guy named Kashah. tell me if i'm being optimistic, honestly i must say, the movie and the characters enrolled by Lisa Surhani and Farid Kamil was quite good and pretty much worth to be watched. well, i totally agreed that Farid Kamil owned the Kasyah part. eheh. the movie, even it's not as good as the novel itself, is way better than the tear-jerking Cinta. LOL. so thumbs up for LBS. :)

ps : Lisa, i'm still your big fan, eventhough there's a part with the 'face' makes me burst into big laugh. HAHA. seems like i'd spoilt the sad scenes. ROFL. ^^"


and two thumbs up for Prince Of Persia. for me, the story tells more to brotherhood instead of fighting for a justice. and Dastan was umph! till someone get sooo jealous with him. cehh, knock it off you jelo. beat my ego first. XD well, obviously, Malay movies managed to improve and started to break the lame-old-style from time to time, but still, it's way uncomparable than Hollywood's i tell you. so, Prince Of Persia is a must watch movie!




NEXT.
i can't barely wait for this. the vacation to Abu Dhabi gonna be amazing i tell you. and surely the fashion behind the movie gonna be so glamorous. it's like every woman's dream you know. and Carrie Bradshaw gives a huge impact on me ; her fashion, her style, her inteligency, her perspectives of life etc. awww! beauty with brain, see?

AND THIS

edward cullen. totally my celebrity crush! ROFL. XD

i was about to begin the introduction with the Prince Of Persia but i changed my mind. i mean, i'm a Malaysian and i wanna shed some gratification for Malay movie. :)

you caught me.

today was a tiring day as i'm spending the whole evening with my favourite person without having a chance to take a deep breath for even once and rest after walking for almost 4 hours. blamed me not, it was the shoes i'm wearing. geez. ==" but still, i'm willing to stay up in order to put some language on my blog. :)

i was tremendously happy today, it was indescribable. if only you wanna know, today was a day marked the beginning of my fondness towards you. i never thought you are willing to do this for me, really. the affection that you gave to me all this while started to tickle the fidgetiness inside me. i know what you were doing was just an art; love. but i'm worry if i'm acting such a burden for you. i'm worry if you'll regret of what you were doing for me cos i'm feeling unsure if i can give you the comitment you were hoping after all. and most of the thing is, i'm feeling insecure if i can keep the promise i'd vowed and lastly carve a smile on your face. i'm telling you the truth, it's my biggest fear in life chain. i don't want to disappoint you. i don't want to be the one who caused your tears running down like the deserts need the rain.

still, i cherish the bond we'd had cos i know i've got beaten by love till i no longer hooking others. i'm promising you the spirit. just so you know, you have win my heart without you even know. :') i'm fighting to win yours too, trust me. :)