Purchasing The Desire

I can't stop fathom how I enjoyed my working life as an admin in Pacific hypermarket and how fun my teamwork was. Being a part of the teamwork was the best thing I ever had. I learned to deal with customers in every situation, I learned to settle things independently and I exposed myself with new skill which i never discovered it before. And most important is, their sense of humor really worked on me, where it was the time I started to let out myself from the box, entering an entire new phase of my life, and being totally open-minded person due to their porno-ish attitude. ROFL. If you ask my current course-mate or my previous matriculation's friends bout my porno-ish level is, the answer will not be surprising at all cos now you know where I inherited all those attitude from. HAHA. I know it is too much gay explicit part of me, but blame me not. They dragged me to be a part of them. Hence, by hook or by crook, you just have to bear with me. :P

I have sketched a plan to search for a job to occupy my first semester's break sooner. I wanna gain as much savoir-faire as I can. I refuse to abandon any chance stand on my path. The enthusiasm is getting vivid. I am freaking eager bout it now. Yeah!

The taiko of our department and the most senior amongst us.
They were called by HR department and given the warning letters for so many times due to their mischievousness. ROFL.
But when it comes to work, they would done a great job.

Another Aida here, Aida fadzlina. :)
And there's big "PACIFIC SALE" written on our T-shirt. =.="

Current mode : Gian nak kerja dooo!

Bye.

Happy Eid-Ul-fitr

Moon of Syawwal is sighted on the eve of the last day of Ramadhan. It is a true Thanksgiving Day where tongue start to articulate forgiveness from physical and emotional. It is time to put your ego beneath a pillow, being modest and admit our weaknesses. The day marked the beginning of new atachment where people bend knees, addressing forgiveness from the elderly citizen by kissing their right hand. The tradition goes with a gatherness of all families' members under one roof cheerishing the relationship bonded us as one big family.

For me myself, I stand as a half adult, where I realized, Syawwal is not all about receiving the green pocket, counting piggy bank and bloated our mind to an alarming degree with moneys. I recalled the time when I was a kid, I glorify Syawwal full with excitement claiming for moneys from the elders, and even me and the other kids were eager of going around our nanny's neighbourhood, visiting house per house claiming for more coins. Now, I see my reflection on my little brother and it makes me reminisced back all those little things I used to have before him.

This year was pretty different from before, we celebrate Syawwal with our new family's member, Mohd Khaizuran b Mohd Zulkiflee. He's so adorable and I just can't resist him. How he melted me when he uttered the word 'Kakak', a first word spoken out when he saw me after 2 months I'd been away. Awww! So presenting my little champion,




I guess I'm pulling out now. Happy Eid-Ul-Fitr people! Have a blast on this most welcoming month okay! :)

Home sweet home.

Finally home after spending 5 horrible hours in the bus. It was like a pain in my ass man! But it's worth doing as at last I reached my beloved Penang. Heaven's bell baby! Couldn't believe myself I'm praising the city after all the abashment I'd sulked due to Penangites' slang themselves. I used to feel not-so-proud bout the slang. But it started to change since I know a friend, who vainly telling me how good Johor is and always mock over Penang (in a joking manner) and me keep telling her the vice versa. Yeah, I love the city already now! LOL. Poyo teruk tak? ROFL. XP

So, I already done my to-do-list cos I don't wanna waste every single time I own here as I won't be home for the next 2 weeks. So just wait and see dude, things are going to turn out freaking good in a meanwhile (well, atleast good in my own angle. ROFL). Although I had sketched my social plan, I need to keep my study right on track. There's so many assignment given and I'm feeling unsure if I can done it in any way. Hence, I made a to-do-list on it too. Hopefully I'll start my work at least by tomorrow. LOL.

Dear Liana Aziz, I'm ready to rumble baby! A time to spend time with you and uttering every little things like we used to do before. I'm trying to fix my time to see you and Hasniza. So wait for my ring okay!

Next.

I know I already introduce her in my blog, but she's just irresistible. So once again, presenting,
Sarah Jessica Parker as Carrie Bradshaw in Sex and The City. I just in love with the character. A talented writer and miss fashionista from New York City. The character gives a huge impact on me. And I'm so in love with New York, wish I can go there someday. I wanna shopping spree! :DD

Enough for now. GTG!

Shake the Glitter Baby.

I'm happy now, I do. Life is fair enough for me. My life is not depends on tossing dice or gambling. Look high at great opportunities and goddamn I have fun friends. I realized I need to pull my old friends and keep them from running away. I feel that I'm so selfish but that's Aida, always being eager to find more friends. But blamed me not. I don't have any intention for being such a snobbish person. I've been through a really hard time back to 2, 3 years before. Friendship is my biggest fear in life chain. Though it may lead to heart broken. I used to give fulltime effort to win my friendship and keep it from falling apart. But it's proven, people changed, people never stay the same. I'd been abandoned by an ex friend and even I'm offering friendship for her, she never accept it and let everything left unspoken. Seems like her attention given to me was a completely farce after all. But now, I can held my head up to space. I can show my popular joker face in front of her without feeling inhuman anymore. I enjoyed everything I've earned now, it's beyond my expectation till it took my sanity. Danggg. There was a great people behind every single fun we experienced. :) I won't mention anyone's name here cos I don't want to show my appreciation towards anyone, or else they will 'Perasan'! ROFL. I guess keeping it to myself sounds more fun. XP.

And the best part is, I'm living my life at the utmost admiration and affection. I'm impressed with everyone's genuine intelligence level and at the same time been able to balance their social life. That's what we called, BEAUTY WITH BRAIN. Can you see the point?

Next, to YOU, I'm sorry if all this time I act such a burden to you. I'll try to stop bugging you at chatbox cos I'm worried if you'll get annoyed later on. So buzzed me if you free okay? :)

Oh one more, I love acting such a bitch! XP So I don't give a damn bout others' thought. Get the hell out from my life you troublesome. Your attention is not needed. Thanks.

Silent Thoughts.

I was all alone in the middle of the night and these sensational unrealistic feelings deep inside me are getting vivid. I refused to post any entry bout my unrealistic emotion cos i don't wanna people to undermine me and look me as a miserable pathetic person. I prefer to put my weaknesses beneath the pillow. And that's the reason i deactivate my previous blog. But i'm feeling human now, i can't help being explosive at this time. My fingers are eager to type all the lumps inside me. There's mixture of feelings now, guess that keeping all those unwanted feelings to myself wasn't a brilliant idea.

fathoming of what i had left behind and what i had earned, I can't keep tears from running down at the edge of my eyes. I always believe that birds always come back to it's nest. But i'm feeling unsure if i can wait long enough, waiting for something that i doubt of the existence. I know i shouldn't stop having faith cos i'm the one who promising you a hope, but it started to fade away now. I can't feel your presence anymore, no catalyst left to spur my confidence towards us. I never look us as one anymore, i saw two different person, with two different world.

I try to fix things up but it's getting harder and harder. Ignorance started to sound bliss for me. I prefer to ignore you, letting everything left undefined. Not a good idea after all, but it's ease me at this moment. I miss you and everything that we ever had. But i'm letting off the grip now, cos i never wanna be a hindrance for you to be happy.

I wanna talk to someone, who could shove away the grief and sadness i felt. And keep everything from falling apart. I need any mantra that can soothe this frenzy emotion. There's always a good people around me, but i don't want to burden them. I don't want anyone to see my tears from running down.


But i wish, i just wish that someone will read this and willing to listen to my silent thoughts. Will you?

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