Home sweet home.

Finally home after spending 5 horrible hours in the bus. It was like a pain in my ass man! But it's worth doing as at last I reached my beloved Penang. Heaven's bell baby! Couldn't believe myself I'm praising the city after all the abashment I'd sulked due to Penangites' slang themselves. I used to feel not-so-proud bout the slang. But it started to change since I know a friend, who vainly telling me how good Johor is and always mock over Penang (in a joking manner) and me keep telling her the vice versa. Yeah, I love the city already now! LOL. Poyo teruk tak? ROFL. XP

So, I already done my to-do-list cos I don't wanna waste every single time I own here as I won't be home for the next 2 weeks. So just wait and see dude, things are going to turn out freaking good in a meanwhile (well, atleast good in my own angle. ROFL). Although I had sketched my social plan, I need to keep my study right on track. There's so many assignment given and I'm feeling unsure if I can done it in any way. Hence, I made a to-do-list on it too. Hopefully I'll start my work at least by tomorrow. LOL.

Dear Liana Aziz, I'm ready to rumble baby! A time to spend time with you and uttering every little things like we used to do before. I'm trying to fix my time to see you and Hasniza. So wait for my ring okay!

Next.

I know I already introduce her in my blog, but she's just irresistible. So once again, presenting,
Sarah Jessica Parker as Carrie Bradshaw in Sex and The City. I just in love with the character. A talented writer and miss fashionista from New York City. The character gives a huge impact on me. And I'm so in love with New York, wish I can go there someday. I wanna shopping spree! :DD

Enough for now. GTG!

Shake the Glitter Baby.

I'm happy now, I do. Life is fair enough for me. My life is not depends on tossing dice or gambling. Look high at great opportunities and goddamn I have fun friends. I realized I need to pull my old friends and keep them from running away. I feel that I'm so selfish but that's Aida, always being eager to find more friends. But blamed me not. I don't have any intention for being such a snobbish person. I've been through a really hard time back to 2, 3 years before. Friendship is my biggest fear in life chain. Though it may lead to heart broken. I used to give fulltime effort to win my friendship and keep it from falling apart. But it's proven, people changed, people never stay the same. I'd been abandoned by an ex friend and even I'm offering friendship for her, she never accept it and let everything left unspoken. Seems like her attention given to me was a completely farce after all. But now, I can held my head up to space. I can show my popular joker face in front of her without feeling inhuman anymore. I enjoyed everything I've earned now, it's beyond my expectation till it took my sanity. Danggg. There was a great people behind every single fun we experienced. :) I won't mention anyone's name here cos I don't want to show my appreciation towards anyone, or else they will 'Perasan'! ROFL. I guess keeping it to myself sounds more fun. XP.

And the best part is, I'm living my life at the utmost admiration and affection. I'm impressed with everyone's genuine intelligence level and at the same time been able to balance their social life. That's what we called, BEAUTY WITH BRAIN. Can you see the point?

Next, to YOU, I'm sorry if all this time I act such a burden to you. I'll try to stop bugging you at chatbox cos I'm worried if you'll get annoyed later on. So buzzed me if you free okay? :)

Oh one more, I love acting such a bitch! XP So I don't give a damn bout others' thought. Get the hell out from my life you troublesome. Your attention is not needed. Thanks.

Silent Thoughts.

I was all alone in the middle of the night and these sensational unrealistic feelings deep inside me are getting vivid. I refused to post any entry bout my unrealistic emotion cos i don't wanna people to undermine me and look me as a miserable pathetic person. I prefer to put my weaknesses beneath the pillow. And that's the reason i deactivate my previous blog. But i'm feeling human now, i can't help being explosive at this time. My fingers are eager to type all the lumps inside me. There's mixture of feelings now, guess that keeping all those unwanted feelings to myself wasn't a brilliant idea.

fathoming of what i had left behind and what i had earned, I can't keep tears from running down at the edge of my eyes. I always believe that birds always come back to it's nest. But i'm feeling unsure if i can wait long enough, waiting for something that i doubt of the existence. I know i shouldn't stop having faith cos i'm the one who promising you a hope, but it started to fade away now. I can't feel your presence anymore, no catalyst left to spur my confidence towards us. I never look us as one anymore, i saw two different person, with two different world.

I try to fix things up but it's getting harder and harder. Ignorance started to sound bliss for me. I prefer to ignore you, letting everything left undefined. Not a good idea after all, but it's ease me at this moment. I miss you and everything that we ever had. But i'm letting off the grip now, cos i never wanna be a hindrance for you to be happy.

I wanna talk to someone, who could shove away the grief and sadness i felt. And keep everything from falling apart. I need any mantra that can soothe this frenzy emotion. There's always a good people around me, but i don't want to burden them. I don't want anyone to see my tears from running down.


But i wish, i just wish that someone will read this and willing to listen to my silent thoughts. Will you?

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Exultant is Bliss.

A demeanour reflects your personality in various perspectives. As time progress, you will gain maturity and started to sketch your own life, fashioning it with different colors and thoughts. When I soon realized that I am big enough to direct my own storyline, I managed to act like one. I don't solely depends on others as I believed I can stand on my own feet. But yes, it's okay to ask for help cos a single help might useful enough to build your own episodes of life.

I am almost fully psyche to face everything beyond my expectation. And absolutely there's great people behind it all. I don't want to post an entry showing my appreciation and affection towards anyone but to be honest, they deserve to be mentioned here cos I was bloomed by the way they treat me. Everyone was being so nice here. Friends, seniors especially my buddies, Kak Kinah and Kak Zara, lecturers, and the list goes on. Frankly speaking, all of them give a voluminous joy for me and they have been helpful enough to gain my confidence.

Yeah, I strongly agree that life as a Dental student is pretty tough, but I always find space between ticking time to socialize and spoil myself. So mundane life and boredom never featured in my vocabulary. But in these 2 or 3 weeks, I might occupied myself settle things up cos I'm semi-conscious of what have been taught to me as I always get too comfy and eventually fall asleep during the lectures. ROFL. XD I need to fix things up or else I'll end up with repeating my whole first year once again while my batch-mate is enjoying their second year. LOL.

Before I end my entry, note this, don't come at me and admit yourself as one of my fellow if you never convinced me before. I used to give full efforts to win our friendship but you never care. So it's too late now if you wanna show your affection and your care towards me. I laughed till my ass out thinking over your action cos you sounds like a miserable pathetic person to me. Shame on you.

And a reminder to you-know-who, stop acting like you're such a good person and I'm such a young bad ass. I try to ignore you but you had crossed the line. Stop telling rumors and fabricate incessantly. If you wanna tell the story, start it from A to Z, don't you just pick up the chapters and afterthought so that I sounds like a bad person in our situation. We both know well what's happening between us. Be mature please.

Enough for now. Have a nice day people. Muaxhs! :)

Random Thoughts.

I was fully occupied for one whole week. Orientation week was a total hectic and i was completely exhausted. I didn't get enough sleep cos well, at home i woke up every 1 or 2 pm. ^^" there's a huge difference between 5.30 am and 1 pm. Sigh. I couldn't even believe myself that i'd made it throughout the week. Big clap for myself. ROFL. But overall, i enjoyed myself tremendously here. I have the instinct saying that something good is gonna happen soon. But i prefer to lower down my expectation. So let just keep the thought safely to myself.

Oh have i mentioned, i saw my seniors from SERATAS here. Kak Anne was not the only senior i saw, but she was the one who handled the orientation week at my college. And guess what, she's my floor-mate too! She's only two rooms from mine if i'm not mistaken. What a fate. Heh. I don't have any idea how i'm gonna face her. Segan kot. ROFL.

And bout roommates, there's 2 of them. Frankly speaking, they're approachable and i think i can get along with them. But one of them was ex-PASUM. So she already have her own PASUM's friends and she's a kind of doing her own things in the room. I don't think that she has the intention to mix around with two of us. Well, obviously i'd tried to have a conversation with her but i guess it takes time to work between us. Nvm, i'm okay with it. Everything will be okay in couple of weeks. I think we're gonna be a good roommates. :P

Oh btw, the course, Dental Surgery i'm taking sounds a bit tough. The timetable given is so pack. =.= But i found out it's gonna be quite excited. Yeah, i love it!

And in case you wanna know, i appear way differ from i was before. People thought that i was a Chinese. And when i said that i'm a Malay, they thought that i'm from Sabah or Sarawak. Funny. It's kinda hilarious act. ROFL. But i love it, at last, i'm being ME. No more fake Aida now. weee. So people, accept me for who i am TODAY.

that's all for now i guess. I'm not in the mood of blogging act. So just a random post here. Take care people. Muahs.